My husband watches Suicide girl videos and jerks off to them.
I look like a mom with no piercings and one small hip tat. No colored hair and I weight roughly 210 lbs. I’m also short.
I never feel sexy. I’ve shown him larger porn stars and he goes “She just doesn’t appeal to me.”
I KNOW I’m beautiful. I have no issue with the way I look. I just…never feel sexy. I feel so uncomfortable with myself all of the time. I had a kid, and lost 60 lbs doing yoga and plateaued at 210 lbs. I feel like if I got healthy, the good feelings would follow. I’d gain a sense of pride at pushing myself.
It’s just hard when you’re used to living in a rut. But I’m sick of feeling this way. I don’t like it.
And I was basically told that the “flap,”
The loose skin from my c-section that save my and my sons life,
Will always be there. My skin lacks elasticity. I think I’m scared of that the most.